tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-79896246993567664602024-03-05T06:55:38.801-08:00My Dear GabbbyMy life without my Daughter GabriellaGabby Angelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01895993892355951593noreply@blogger.comBlogger11125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7989624699356766460.post-53504158582185366912011-09-01T00:48:00.001-07:002011-09-01T00:48:02.068-07:00?Gabby Angelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01895993892355951593noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7989624699356766460.post-73513865920655217082011-09-01T00:45:00.001-07:002011-09-01T00:45:57.442-07:00Wow<p>So most of u already know Shane and I are ttc our 2nd little one.. Its been a reall rough road so far.. I feel so lost lately I feel like im missing something really important... Hopefully this month will be my lucky month </p> <br/> Gabby Angelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01895993892355951593noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7989624699356766460.post-51890515943067910702011-01-19T18:46:00.000-08:002011-01-19T18:46:17.481-08:001st donationToday mommy got to meet a fellow BLM Kendra. Kendra made mommy some hats for mommy to donate to the local hospital in memory of you. the hats are so cute and mommy cant wait to bring them to the hospital. :)<br />
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LOVE ALWAYS<br />
MOMMYGabby Angelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01895993892355951593noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7989624699356766460.post-29480770690020113012010-10-27T19:59:00.000-07:002010-10-27T19:59:31.549-07:00What Is a Mother?I seen one of my BLM friend's blog post about "What Makes a Mother?" I really started thinking about it!!! Am I any less of a Mother because my daughter didn't have a Chance to live??? I feel like a Mother I went through LABOR to deliver my daughter, Yes she was Stillborn but I carried her for 28 weeks 4 days she Lived in my body but according to the definition A Mother is as follows:<br />
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</div><div style="font-size: 14px;">"~<b>A mother can be a woman who conceives, births, and raises a child given to her by God. She is what we as a society see as a mother.</b></div><div style="font-size: 14px;"> ~<b>A mother can be a young woman who finds herself pregnant, unable to parent, who chooses life for her child by placing him for adoption. In choosing life for her child she becomes a mother. She will not be that baby’s parent but she is his birth mother.</b></div><div style="font-size: 14px;"> ~<b>A mother can be the one who prays for a baby she does not carry in her womb. She becomes the mother and parent to a child given in adoption. She is there in the night, in sickness, in health, in joy, and in sadness. She is her mother.</b></div><div style="font-size: 14px;"> ~<b>A mother can be a woman who takes on the care of another’s children through foster care or guardianship. She gives her life to loving them. They see her as mother."</b></div><div style="font-size: 14px;"><br />
</div><div style="font-size: 14px;">No where on there does it mention carrying a baby that you don't get to take home. SO BY DEFINITION I AM NOT A MOTHER?? COME ON I'M JUST LIKE EVERY OTHER WOMEN WHO CARRIED A STILLBORN WE ARE MOTHERS TO ANGEL BABIES!!!!!</div><div style="font-size: 14px;"> <b><br />
</b></div><div style="font-size: 14px;"> <b>(thank you Cally for sharing the definition)</b></div>Gabby Angelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01895993892355951593noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7989624699356766460.post-78537584448305015472010-10-17T14:15:00.000-07:002010-10-17T14:27:10.715-07:00weekend in reality<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi7GSBFSkTm9uktfTSPUaYyJAegXH7-zrcfwLOZpzNnhvwrQNGogljhVK3rruHbjciNr1P2LdlgaRxWGNaP4zeAHpR3-O_ZDWcrwDjWBhGNMrKAos24_ySLEAP4sUDQd72dpAiapjYVVfe1/s1600/GABRIELLA2.jpg"><img style="display: block; margin: 0px auto 10px; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 211px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi7GSBFSkTm9uktfTSPUaYyJAegXH7-zrcfwLOZpzNnhvwrQNGogljhVK3rruHbjciNr1P2LdlgaRxWGNaP4zeAHpR3-O_ZDWcrwDjWBhGNMrKAos24_ySLEAP4sUDQd72dpAiapjYVVfe1/s320/GABRIELLA2.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5529127696705509042" border="0" /></a>Then Friday was baby and infant loss <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">awareness</span> day where everyone lit a candle in memory of babies that have gone to soon. Up until this year I had no idea about this day. There where so many candles lit and so many people helped me remember you I cried most of the day.<br /><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;">Thursday marked 3 months with out Gabriella it feels like just yesterday.<br /></span>Gabby Angelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01895993892355951593noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7989624699356766460.post-61712842406182591632010-10-13T00:06:00.000-07:002010-10-13T00:11:18.062-07:00The SignWhile walking out my apartment door to get some air I seen the cutest sign from Gabriella. Today she sent me a baby bird. I ran inside to grab my camera and by the time i got back the baby bird was gone :(. About an hour later I went to check the mail and a small feather fell in my face. I Love you Gabriella LynnGabby Angelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01895993892355951593noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7989624699356766460.post-79815747277605089032010-10-09T21:06:00.000-07:002010-10-09T21:14:30.665-07:00Gabriella on my MindI was unpacking today and came across some pictures, there where not just any pictures they where the last pictures of me pregnant with you. One of those pictures was taken on the morning that I found out you where an Angel... After looking at the pictures daddy and I where listening to some CDs and Selena's song "Bidi Bidi Bom Bom" came on Mommy cried because you alwzys "danced" to that song. today was rough I never ever thought I would lose you and yet I did... I miss you GabriellaGabby Angelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01895993892355951593noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7989624699356766460.post-33484514727033746182010-09-06T19:20:00.000-07:002010-09-06T19:43:46.915-07:00My heart is broken<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj_1u1slQGj-lZRNhr2q2B0TCySTbgVkYQzdxqYc1SnoLiP0a-mVcOWDEFJWVTZSjmywx-WlF_BGJ5PKbOY4Fj5sFl2BLEkEimJ1vFMtwFz2-F6ML54aLnJrfrzJ5pPNWbwugUNL0DUQn74/s1600/36803_422441628562_743338562_4485548_5212436_n.jpg"><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 320px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 240px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5513996685202505330" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj_1u1slQGj-lZRNhr2q2B0TCySTbgVkYQzdxqYc1SnoLiP0a-mVcOWDEFJWVTZSjmywx-WlF_BGJ5PKbOY4Fj5sFl2BLEkEimJ1vFMtwFz2-F6ML54aLnJrfrzJ5pPNWbwugUNL0DUQn74/s320/36803_422441628562_743338562_4485548_5212436_n.jpg" /></a><br /><div>This is my 1st blog about the loss of my daughter Gabriella. I lost my little girl due to placenta previa at 28 weeks 5 days. There has not been a day that has gone by that I dont think about that dredful day that the Dr told me "sorry but, the baby is gone." On Jan. 25th 2010 I found out I was pregnant. I was so joyful that I was gonna be a mommy. Me and my then fiance (we are now married) hurried home to tell his family, everyone was so happy for us. On Feb. 13th 2010 I married the love of my life Shane I'll never forget the look in his eye when I walked down the asile :) I felt so much love that day. On May 18th 2010 Shane and I found out we where having a baby girl we decided to name her Gabriella Lynn. I loved every moment of feeling my little girl kick me whe her daddy was around. on memorial day weekend I started bleeding, I was put in the hospital for 2 days with a tear in my cervix. Once released I was put on bedrest for 4 weeks I decided to stay on for 5 weeks just to be safe on July 8th I went to the Dr. little did I know It would be the last time I would hear my baby's heart beat. That day my dr. cleared me to go on vacation, the next day my husband and I left for IL. On July 13th I informed my husband that Gabriella had not been kicking me for 24 hours he rushed me to the er where they ran test and informed me that the baby had died. I was then refered to another hospital that would deliever me. On July 14th my Angel Gabriella came into the world. She was a beautiful combination of me and my husband. She weighed 2lbs 1oz and was 13.5 inches long. I'll always think of my baby girl Gabriella. </div><br /><div>I love you Gabriella R.I.P my ANGEL</div><br /><div></div>Gabby Angelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01895993892355951593noreply@blogger.com1