Sunday, October 17, 2010

weekend in reality

Then Friday was baby and infant loss awareness day where everyone lit a candle in memory of babies that have gone to soon. Up until this year I had no idea about this day. There where so many candles lit and so many people helped me remember you I cried most of the day.

Thursday marked 3 months with out Gabriella it feels like just yesterday.

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

The Sign

While walking out my apartment door to get some air I seen the cutest sign from Gabriella. Today she sent me a baby bird. I ran inside to grab my camera and by the time i got back the baby bird was gone :(. About an hour later I went to check the mail and a small feather fell in my face. I Love you Gabriella Lynn

Saturday, October 9, 2010

Gabriella on my Mind

I was unpacking today and came across some pictures, there where not just any pictures they where the last pictures of me pregnant with you. One of those pictures was taken on the morning that I found out you where an Angel... After looking at the pictures daddy and I where listening to some CDs and Selena's song "Bidi Bidi Bom Bom" came on Mommy cried because you alwzys "danced" to that song. today was rough I never ever thought I would lose you and yet I did... I miss you Gabriella

Monday, September 6, 2010

My heart is broken


This is my 1st blog about the loss of my daughter Gabriella. I lost my little girl due to placenta previa at 28 weeks 5 days. There has not been a day that has gone by that I dont think about that dredful day that the Dr told me "sorry but, the baby is gone." On Jan. 25th 2010 I found out I was pregnant. I was so joyful that I was gonna be a mommy. Me and my then fiance (we are now married) hurried home to tell his family, everyone was so happy for us. On Feb. 13th 2010 I married the love of my life Shane I'll never forget the look in his eye when I walked down the asile :) I felt so much love that day. On May 18th 2010 Shane and I found out we where having a baby girl we decided to name her Gabriella Lynn. I loved every moment of feeling my little girl kick me whe her daddy was around. on memorial day weekend I started bleeding, I was put in the hospital for 2 days with a tear in my cervix. Once released I was put on bedrest for 4 weeks I decided to stay on for 5 weeks just to be safe on July 8th I went to the Dr. little did I know It would be the last time I would hear my baby's heart beat. That day my dr. cleared me to go on vacation, the next day my husband and I left for IL. On July 13th I informed my husband that Gabriella had not been kicking me for 24 hours he rushed me to the er where they ran test and informed me that the baby had died. I was then refered to another hospital that would deliever me. On July 14th my Angel Gabriella came into the world. She was a beautiful combination of me and my husband. She weighed 2lbs 1oz and was 13.5 inches long. I'll always think of my baby girl Gabriella.

I love you Gabriella R.I.P my ANGEL